Just the thoughts and musings of a middle-aged, aspiring Buddhist, late-diagnosed autistic female genius. You will probably not agree with me, but at least I will make you THINK. The only comments I take are high praise or gently constructive criticism. All others will be duly ignored.
In America, we have a philosophy that things must be ranked, optimized, put in order and our primary way of creating that order is through competition. We judge those who "win" as morally superior to those who "lose" in competition. If you lost a competition, you are encouraged to pick yourself up, dust yourself off …
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I am taking a short leave of absence from work this week and next due to my anxiety and stress. One of the first things I think of as a tool at my disposal for stress management is to head directly to my local float center. If you are unfamiliar, floating is a practice where …
In many different contexts, it seems as if things are continually increasing, rising, expanding or growing. We are told the universe grows as though the galaxies are placed on the outside of a balloon that is being blown up indefinitely (until it pops?). We are also told that if you are able to save even …
I've written about change a lot in the last year. It's kinda one of my fascinations in life. Having spent much of my life feeling stuck in situations that were not entirely of my doing or planning or in my control, punctuated by episodes of immediate and sometimes drastic change (like moving to a new …
Many of us work in jobs that are, at least remotely related to a field that we enjoy. Maybe you went to college in a scientific field or to be an engineer. You started out in that field and were successful and competent enough that you were promoted to management. You may not LOVE your …
In the arguments occurring in Congress over the last few weeks (and months and years, really), we often hear the conservatives arguing that people should definitely not be given "too generous " unemployment benefits because it reduces or removes the incentive to work. These are the same people who talk about the value of a …
Here it is, 2am again, and my mind is racing. I got a text from a friend last night which led to an hour long "catching up" conversation. I think I pretty much dominated the talk time; fortunately for me, this friend is a great listener who I trust would tell me to STFU if …
Though I never found out who he was quoting, Kenny (The Jet) Smith said something on one of the NBA conference final pregame shows that I thought was absolutely profound. He did not come up with the statement himself and he did give attribution, but I just missed it. If you happen to know, feel …
I am starting to see some patterns in some of the "normal" white people I follow on Twitter and elsewhere. The narrative goes something like 'Has anyone else started to feel a little guilty about XYZ?' These statements reflect recent revelations about race, gender/pay inequities, or even autism. Like it NEVER occurred to these people …
I feel my soul contracting in parallel with the society and the economy. It is a constant uneasy feeling, as though it is getting harder to move, harder to live fully, harder to feel deeply. So many people, fellow human beings, are finding it hard to breathe. COVID and police violence are forcing the breath …
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