It has been a while, but man, there has been some wicked life shit I’ve been working out lately. I don’t even really know how to describe it, but of course, as expected, things started moving really fast with that last shamanic ritual I participated in and it’s been a bit of a whirlwind.

First, I feel like I have finally assembled an extremely strong core team for my next steps. I’ll admit there have been some hiccups. Some candidates for my team didn’t work out as expected, but don’t worry; our parting was a mutual decision in each case. At this point, I feel more supported than ever, with at least 3 or 4 new TRUE friends, people I would walk through fire for, because I KNOW each of them would do the same for me. Everyone should be able to receive this kind of support from their community.

Second, I’m reframing my old thoughts and beliefs about money that no longer serve me and my family. I have spent decades, my entire adult life, striving for something, always. More money enables one to buy more stuff; that’s it. But what if you have enough stuff? What if there’s nothing you need? Well then you save it, make sure you can pay your own bills at all costs, even in an emergency, because if you can’t/don’t and choose to make yourself a burden on others, you are valueless to society. That’s done. No more. New mantra? Money is a tool! It doesn’t matter how many hammers you have if they’re all boxed up in a personal storage locker when you need one. I’m now letting money flow through me with more ease, or that is my intention, anyway.

And lastly, one of those aforementioned team members is helping me separate my emotions from all those of others that I have been carrying my entire life. It occurred to me today that the reason I am so emotional all the time and yet do not know what I’m feeling is because I’m not feeling me. It’s like the radio tuner is set to the wrong station and I’m still trying to find my own frequency. Instead, I have turned into ALL the other frequencies at once and I can no longer distinguish which is which. I must turn the volume down, tune into each one separately, and work on my boundaries to set a decibel limit on that station so I can begin to hear my own again. I have no idea what has been playing on my own station!

And I’m supposed to start a business on top of all that? Uh, I don’t even think Superwoman could do that. Besides, I’m still aspiring. But I’m further down the right path now than I was yesterday.

An honest and heart-felt THANK YOU to my people; you know who you are. You are all amazing and I’ll never stop pushing myself to believe I am the person that you say I am.

Taking out the fish hooks, one by one.